Awake

Awake (1994)

1. 6:00
2. Caught In A Web
3. Innocence Faded
4. A Mind Beside Itself
5. The Mirror
6. Lie
7. Lifting Shadows Off A Dream
8. Scarred
9. Space-Dye Vest

1. 6:00

Six o'clock the siren kicks from a dream
Tries to shake it off but it just won't stop
Can't find the strength but he's got promises to keep
And wood to chop before he sleeps

I may never get over
But never's better than now
I've got bases to cover

He's in the parking lot just sitting in his car
It's nine o'clock but he can't get out
He lights a cigarette and turns the music down
But just can't seem to shake that sound

Once I thought I'd get over
But it's too late for me now
I've got bases to cover

Melody walks through the door
And memory flies out the window
And nobody knows what they want
'till they finally let it all go

The pain inside
Coming outside

So many ways to drown a man
So many ways to drag him down
Some are fast and some take years and years
Can't hear what he's saying when he's talking in his sleep
Finally found the sound but he's in too deep

I could never get out
Is it too late for me now?
Feel like blowing my cover

Melody walks through the door
And memory flies out the window
And nobody knows what they want
'till they finally let it all go

But don't cut your losses too soon
'Cause you'll only be cutting your throat
And answer a call while you still hear at all
'Cause nobody will if you won't

2. Caught In A Web

Silence disguised I watch you
Show me the hurt that haunts you
Would you despise the thrill
If all you hide where mine?
I can't hold on any longer
These feelings keep growing stronger
Echoes that deafen the mind
Will bury my voice in their wake

Caught in a Web
Removed from the world
Hanging on by a thread
Spinning the lies
Devised in my head

I've seen the path the one you take
Shows the truth for you to make
This turn of phrase we might not see
Is the thirst of desire found so easily
Try to push me round
The world some more
And make me live in fear
I bare all that I am made of now
Attractive I don't care
'Cause even when I danced with life
No one was there to share
Doese this voice the wounds of your soul?

Caught in a Web
Removed from the world
Hanging on by a thread
Spinning the lies
Devised in my head

Tried to live the life you live and saw
It doesn't work for me
I bare all that I am made of now
Attractive I can't be
Inside the dance of life is one
I'll never hold to me
You can't heal the wounds of my soul

Caught in a Web
Removed from the world
Hanging on by a thread
Spinning the lies
Devised in my head

Caught in a Web
Refused by the world
Hanging on by a thread
Spinning a cage
Denied and misread

3. Innocence Faded

Animation
Breathes a cloudless mind
Fascination
Leaves the doubting blind
Until the circle breaks
and wisdom lies ahead
The faithful live Awake
The rest remain misied
Some will transcend spinning years
One as if time disappears

Innocence faded
the mirror falls behind you
Trinity jaded
I break down walls to find you

Callow and vain
fixed like a fossil, shrouding pain
Passionless stage
Distant like brothers
Wearing apathetics displays
Sharing flesh like envy in cage
Condescending
Not intending to end

Innocence faded
the mirror falls behind you
Trinity jaded
I break down walls to find you

Beginnings get complicated
the further we progress
Opinions are calculated
Immune to openness
Beyond the circle's edge
We're driven by her blessings
Forever hesitating
Caught beneath the wheel

Innocence faded
the mirror falls behind you
Cynivally jaded
The child will crawl to find you

4. A Mind Beside Itself

[Erotomania]
[instrumental]

5. The Mirror

Temptation -
Why won't you leave me alone?
Lurking Every Corner, everythere I go
Self Control -
Don't turn your back on me now
When I need you most
Constant pressure tests my will
My will or my wont
My self control escapes from me still...
Hypocrite -
How could you be so cruel
and expect my faith in return?
Resistance -

I snot as hard as it seems
When you close the door
I spent so long trusting in you
I trust you forgot
Just then I thought I believe in you...
It's time for me to deal
Becoming all too real
Living in fear -
Why did you lie and pretend?
This has come to an end
I'll never trust you again
It's time you made your amends
Look in the mirror my friend
Let's stare the problem right in the eye
It's played me coast to coast
Racing the clock to please everyone
All but the one who matters the most
Reflections of reality
are slowly coming into view
How in the hell you possibly forgive me?
After the hell I put you through
It's time for me to deal
Becoming all too real
Living in fear -
Why I'd betray my friend?
Lying until the end
It's time to make my amends
I'll never hurt you again

6. Lie

Daybreak
at the bottom of lake
It's a hundred degrees I can't breathe
And I won't get out
'till figure it out
Thought I'm weak like I can't believe
So you tell me "trust me" I can trust you
Just let me show you
But I gotta work it out in a shadow of doubt
'cause I don't know it I know you
Doing fine but don't waste my time
Tell me what it is you want to say
You sin, you win, just let me in - hurry
I've been out in the rain all day
So you tell me "trust me" I can trust you
as far as I can throw you
And I'm trying to get out of a shadow of doubt
'cause I don't know if I know you
Don't tell me you wanted me
Don't tell me you thought of me
I won't, I swear I won't
(Did)
I'll try, I swear I'll try
(Lie)
Mother Mary quite contary
Kiss the boys and make them wary

Things are getting just a little bit scarry
It's a wonder I can still breathe
Never been much of a doubting Thomas
but nothing breaks likes a broken promise
You tell me bout your two more coming
but once is just enough to me
I had gotten used to being a soul destroyed
She comes in apparently to fill the void
All dogs need a leash and at least I'll forget it
And she would never hurt me though
she's never said it
But I'm not gonna ask her today
I don't wanna scare her away
Your town, I'm alone
and I just can't stare at the phone
I wanna talk about lifelong mistakes
and you can tell your stepfather I say so

7. Lifting Shadows Off A Dream

He seems alone and silent
thoughts remain without and answer
Afraid and uninvited he slowly drifts away
Moved by desire and fear
Breaking delicate wings

Lifting shadows
Off a Dream once broken
She can turn a drop of water
Into an ocean

As the rain is pouring down
Tears of sorrow wash his mind
Drifting with the current
This stream of life flows on
He seems alone and silent
Waiting on his hands and knees
The chill of winner's
Darkness sits quietly
Moved by desire and fear
He takes few steps away

Lifting shadows
Off a Dream once broken
She can turn a drop of water
Into an ocean

She carries him away
and the winds die slowly

Lifting shadows
Off a Dream once broken
She can turn a drop of water
Into an ocean

Lifting shadows off a Dream

8. Scarred

To Rise, To Fall
To Hurt, To Hate
To Want, To Wait
To Heal, To Save
Can't hear it
we fear it
awareness won't come near it
Distractive
Reactive
Disguised in spite of time
I never bared my emotions
My passion always strong
I never lost my devotion
but somewhere fate went wrong
Can't let them rape me again
Your venom's not family here
won't let them fill me with
fatalistic remedies

What if the rest of the world
was hopelessly blinded by fear?
Where would my sanctity live?
Suddenly nobody cares

It's never enough
You're wasting my time
Isn't there something I could say?
You don't understand
You're closing me out
How can we live our lives this way?
You tell me I'm wrong
I'm risking my life
Still, I have nothing to return
I show you my hands
You don't see the scars
Maybe you'll live me here to burn

What if the rest of the world
was hopelessly drowning in vain
Where would our self pity run?
Suddenly everyone caress

Blood... Heal me
Fear... Change me
Belief will always save me
Blood... Swearing
Fear... Staring
Conviction made aware
Give up on misery
Turn you back on dissent
Leave their distrust behind
Wash your hand of regret

Do you feel you don't know me anymore?
And do you feel I'm afraid of your love?
And how come you don't want me asking?
And how come my heart's not invited?
You say you want everyone happy
Well, we're not laughting
And how come you don't understand me?
And how come I don't understand you?
Thirly years say we're in this together
So open your eyes
People in prayer for me
everyone there for me
Sometimes I feel should face this alone
My soul exposed
It calms me to know that I won't

Blood... Heal me
Fear... Change me
Belief will always save me
Blood... Swearing
Fear... Staring
Conviction made aware
Give up on misery
Turn you back on dissent
Leave their distrust behind
Wash your hand of regret

Blood... Heal me
Fear... Change me
Belief will always save me
Blood... Swearing
Fear... Staring
Conviction made aware
Learning from misery
Staring back on dissent
Leaving distrust behind
I'm inspired and content

9. Space-Dye Vest

Falling through pages of Martens on angels
Feeling my heart pull west
I saw the future dressed as a stranger
love in space-dye vest
Love is an act of blood and I'm bleeding
a pool in the shape of a heart
Beauty projection in the reflection
Always the worst way to start
Now that you're gone I'm trying to take it
Learning to swallow the rage
Found a new girl I think we can make it
as long as she stays on the page
This is not how I want it to end
And I'll never be open again
There's no one to take my blame
if they wanted to
Nothing to keep me sane
and it's all the same to you
There's nowhere to set my aim
so I'm everywhere
Never come near me again
do you really think I need you
And I'll smile and I'll learn to pretend
And I'll never be open again
And I'll have no more dreams to defend
And I'll never be open again